Thursday, August 31, 2023

whew


I agreed to to stay with my mom while my sister went to Europe with her son and family.  I brought my water weights for the pool, was going to watch movies, cross stitch and make soup for my mom. Hasn't really worked out that way. Here's a review.
Friday:
Flew out of Boise early .... left my phone at Callies 
Got to Yuba City to find my mom in bad shape. Her breathing was labored and she couldn't walk. I knew I couldn't take care of her.
Saturday:
Took mom to ER in Marysville 
She told all the staff that she was just drinking her tea when all the sudden these men with dark shirts showed up and made her go to the hospital.  
ThIs visit was like binge watching ER.
I can't count how many times she said nothing is wrong with me. I want to go home.
Sunday:
Still sticking to her story.
Admitted with UTI and CHF.
I really thought we could clear this up and she could come home. 
Monday:
Still sticking with her story.
With the help of Andrea, the doctor ordered an ultra sound on her leg. 
Talked about going to the Fountains for rehab before she could come home.
By the end of day the Vascular Surgeon gave me the news no one wants to hear. 
She had blockage in her leg. There was no circulation in her lower leg. She was too weak for surgery. She will loose her leg.

Tuesday:
Still sticking to her story.
UTI is clearing up. CHF, not so much. More Lasix  and a multitude of other drugs.
I brought up bringing her home on Hospice. 
She's still not talking to me.
Doctor explained that she would loose her leg. 
Worried about not getting into the Fountains with new diagnosis.  She needed to go straight to skilled nursing.  Got clearance late in the afternoon.
Called for back up. 
Wednesday:
Washed her face.
Still sticking to her story and mad at me.
Jay came by noon.
Talked to the doctor in the hall about not using the H word. We were calling it Comfort Care.
Meet with pain manager. 
Agreed to comfort care.
Accepted into the Fountains with Hospice. 
Worked out the financial. 
My brother rocks
She's in so much pain.
Thursday:
Shes cranky and nervous about going to the Fountains 
They gave her morphine and she was out of it for the transfer and the paper signing.

I put my mother on Hospice today. 
It had to happen, but it hurts.
I am so blessed with incredible friends an d family.
Hopefully next week will be better. 


Sunday, August 20, 2023

Best of Summer List

I always like to do my favorite parts of Summer. I've had some great moments.  

I love my water arobics group. We had a different teacher this year and I missed Paula so much, but this hour of the day provides much needed exercise and friendship. 


Flowers, flowers, flowers





Atlantic Ocean and white sand





These amazing people 




The knowledge that families can be together forever.





















My mom


After the service I had Spencer take family pictures with my mom. I kept saying "I really think we'll regret it if we don't take this opportunity". 

My mom had a good afternoon.  She sat in her chair and told stories to all the grandkids. She was in her glory. 

About 6 the next morning, I got a phone call from Allison. They had taken her to the hospital with what they called a breathing episode.  At first they thought it was a 'broken heart' heart attack, but something kept coming up on the bloodwork that made them keep testing. 

She kept telling them
 "Therehere is nothing wrong with me. You should let me go home." When they wanted to do angioplasty she told them, "I'm 89 and I'm not doing surgery." She finally relented. 

The angioplasty showed all her arteries are blocked. They could do open heart surgery but it would be very dangerous and she is 89 and doesn't want it. 

It has been a devastating diagnosis for me. Taking blood thinners for 3 arteries 90% blocked is like putting a band-aid on a volcano. To make matters worse, she came home from the hospital with covid and it quickly spread to me brother, sister and there spouses. What a stressful week this has been.  

My mom is extremely week. Her leg is bothering her. She can barely move. She sleeps all the time. She went from healthy to 
Chronic illness in a heart beat. 

To say my heartis broken would be putting it mildly.  I know that she has lived a good, active life. When I look at this, blind and crippled little lady, I know she has earned her exit from this world. But I thought we had more time. 

I want to say that I'm praying for a recovery, but to be honest, I don't know what to pray for. I pray for my will to be aligned with His will. I pray for the Spirit to comfort us, including her, during this very difficult adjustment.  

Life happens, take the picture. 

Sunday, August 13, 2023

Alfred Dale Empey

My dad passed away recently.  I learned how to write an obituary.  I wrote it and my mother approved and edited. Out of the 4 people who edited, none of us noticed that I had the wrong number of years they were married. It was 69, not 59. Live and learn. 

Here is the life sketch I wrote. I'm adding some pictures for fun. 


Alfred Dale Empey was born on June 16, 1932 in Idaho Falls Idaho. He was so little that they put him in a box and kept him warm in the oven. 


 He was an only child. He grew up on a farm in Ammon Idaho in a house with no indoor plumbing.

This is the house about 6 years after he moved out.

He walked to school uphill both ways, with snow on the ground and holes in his shoes.

 His mother died when he was 8 years old. 

He and his dad lived together but he sometimes had to stay with Aunts when grandpa needed to do some extra work. 

          Al and his cousin Ralph Edwards


He would always say that he was a very lonely child. He went to school in Ammon…the school is still there.


 When he was a Senior at Ammon High School he had a new teacher named Parker Richards. Parker was my mom’s uncle and they met when she came for a visit. She wrote in his yearbook. "Don’t forget that we have the store in Providence, you can come see me”



 After he graduated he went to Utah State in the Fall of 1950 where he majored in Agriculture. A few years later he dated my mom and they were married in 1954 in Providence Utah. 


Their 69th anniversary would be tomorrow (August 5). They have already been together forever. 


He was in ROTC so after graduation he went into the Army as an officer. He served in Korea iat the Food Depot. He was there for 18 months. Then he came home and served for 18 months longer. When he had completed his service, he had moved coast to coast and had 2 kids.



 He wanted to go back to the farm, but it had been sold. He found a job on the USU job board for the USDA. When I was kid people would ask me what my dad did, I really had no idea. He was a warehouse examiner. That means he made sure that government subsidized crops were measured and recorded properly. He was gone during the week and came home on weekends. He would work in exotic places like Ogden Utah, Portland Oregon, Sutter California and Malad Idaho. Basically anywhere there was a grain elevator. He would always do the Weekly Report on Sundays while listening to Johnny Cash or Ray Coniff records. This was a long process that required precise handwriting and his beverage of choice.

                      111 Beverly Lane

 We lived in Houston Texas for 4 years and then returned to Twin Falls in 1968 and stayed until 1977 when we moved to Yuba City CA. He had two bawling teenage girls with him. 
 He taught us what every crop was and we were able to identify most anything ever grown in Idaho. It was significantly more difficult in California. He was active in the Elks Lodge in Twin Falls. I believe he had a reserved seat. He was always very active and had many friends. Although he had a lonely childhood, I feel like he made up for it as an adult. -He played baseball when he was young. He had lots of friends in our neighborhood in Texas. - He had friends at the Elks Club and the golf course. He fished when we were young and Later he started golfing. He faithfully went to the Municipal golf course in Twin Falls until we moved to Yuba City. 

       Kay and Al with Verna and Parker 


 He bought a membership at Plumas Lake one afternoon when someone came into the club house after a frustrating day and sold it for $100. Not only did he enjoy many hours of golfing but It turned out to be a good investment when he sold it later.


 He loved to bbq…had the cleanest grill possible and insisted we tell him how good it was.

    Bob and Maria, work and golf friends

 After he retired and his golfing buddy moved away, he spent many, many hours studying maps that he would pick up at the Triple A. He would plot and graph routes to cities and states in a way that would challenge Google anyday. I trusted his planning more than Google. He loved all movies and books about World War II. He loved driving from Yuba City to Twin Falls or Utah to see Hannah and Jake. He stopped at every rest stop and often the towns in between. He knew every bend and bump in that road.




 After his father died in 1986, he had a desire to go to the temple. When I heard about it, I thought nothing of it. He would have to quit drinking. The week before he was supposed to go, he had an interview with the Stake President and he told him that he was still drinking. I don’t know what happened in the interview, but he stopped drinking the next day. He took my mom to the Oakland Temple in 1987 where they were sealed for time and all eternity. Allison, Ty and I were sealed to our parents at the same time. This was a life changing event and he was helped by some very good people. It is when I learned that everyone can change with the help of our Savior, Jesus Christ.



 Since his stroke a few years ago he has had multiple health problems. Everyday he got up, got dressed, had breakfast and sat in his chair at the table. 
He was always polite and kind to those who helped him. He passed away peacefully on July 30th 2023.

Dad

Two weeks ago, July 30, 2023, I was going to sit down and write about how I felt. My dad had been in hospice for a few days. You know, it is a waiting game. Around 4 in the afternoon, my sister called to tell me he had passed. He had told my mom the day before that he had talked with his dad and it wouldn't be long. I guess his dad was right. 


My mom wanted a graveside service on Friday. We went in to "get it done mode".


Wes and my brother in law dressed him in temple clothes. Ty didn't come until Thursday evening and left Friday around 2. You miss a lot when you choose to be left out.


We had to tell something we learned from dad. He wasn't much of a parent, it was pretty hard to come up with something.  


I looked back and my bestie Liz was there.  It made my heart happy to see my children with her. She's just the kind of friend who is always there.


I want to share a couple of thoughts.

I had a rough relationship with my dad for many years. He worked out of town all week. He would come home on Friday and go to the Elks Lodge and get drunk. Saturday was devoted to his hobby of choice, fishing when he was young and then golf, and plenty of drinking. Sunday was the Weekly Report and some more drinking. He was not a parent. 

I had to work through my feelings and it took years. In the end, we are all responsible for our own feelings. I couldn't change anything or even ask for an apology.  I owned my feelings. I moved on. Eventually he did stop drinking. He became a different person. By then I had already adjusted my attitude and although I was happy for him, I was glad that it was not life changing to me. 

When Lynn was in High School, when we had family dinner, she and my dad argued for hours. Talk about indigestion.  Looking back I can see that he was 'parenting'. I wanted none of it. So when he tried to argue with me, I would just agree with him. I didn't know it would drive hom crazy, it was a consequence I didn't see coming.  He would tell me all the time that I could never finish anything. Sometimes I would tell him, 'You're right, I can't even finish my dinner .'   

He was wrong and I knew it. I'd go to work and stay until I was finished. I finished my AA from Yuba college...I took a year off,...but when I came back I did two 18 unit semesters to do it. I finished sewing projects, I finished my mission.  I use to run and would finish my 3 mile program every day. He never acknowledged these accomplishments, but I did and I learned to live my life without looking for validation from others. Best thing I ever learned from him. 

I believe he did the best he could and despite it all, I learned a lot from him. Just not the kind of stuff you would say at a funeral. 

Sunday, August 6, 2023

Cousin Crew


I have 2 cousins. I probably saw them 3 times in my life. I really want the grands to know each other; to see each other. So I begged their parents for some time with them and without  their parents. 


We had a good time. They were really good. 
Lots of Kool-aid and chicken nuggets. 


I saved my birthday cake to share with them. We had it out back. Im not saying that they are messy, but they are.


These are my cross stitchers.

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Norah did her own thing...it was pretty cool. 


 Peter was determined.


We went to the pool one day and  had a huge Water gun fight the next day. 

They had a great time. Peter and Lucy reconected. Hopefully we will do it again. I  was tired but very happy. 

I didn't have cousins and i feel like I missed something life enriching.  I love that I have connected with a few of my parents cousins.

 Family is everything. 

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