Week 4 of April

I would live to show some pictures of my tulips but they aren't here yet. However life is looking up a little this week. 

This week I see geen trees. 

Last week, not so much. 

I was wearing a sweater when i sat outside ladt week, but it is warmer today. 

We got Scott moved

 

The kid is 32 years old and  can barely fill up a little trailir. The good news is that he was 
Doing okay mentally.  Definitely the hand of  the Lord. 

Signs

This tree usually in full bloom by now . We have been waiting...waiting...waiting. We are so close. 

And then I looked across the lawn, which has greened up, and saw the top of this little tree. The bees are at work. Life is coming back. 

It's been a hard couple of weeks. Trying to help Scott get moved, changing job assignment for next year and putting my dad in assisted living knowing he will never come home and then realizing that the reason you are so tired is because you are sick, have left me with a sad heart and looking for signs of hope. What can I say? Not everyday is a

 winner. 

Things are coming together slowly.  Just like Spring. 

Jesus is the Christ.  He lives and loves us. 

Miricles

I don't know who planted these bulbs but I want to thank them.  Every single year they come up. Every single year they bring hope of warmer weather and more flowers showing their faces.

We had a week with our son Scott. More prayers. He asked for prayers...that's a new one. He went to a clinic Friday night and they gave him something for anxiety.  Mental illness is a force to be reckon with. But there is always hope that this med will work. 

Grow flowers Grow

He Lives and He Loves Us

As Easter comes this year, there has been a lot of talk about making it more about Christ. People read the Christmas story at Christmas but how many read the Story of Him rising from the death. 

 I have to admitt that I have been getting up on Easter morning and reading this for the last 40 years. I love the account in John 20. It is here that we read that Mary was the first person that Jesus talked to. He told that it was okay, that He had risen.

I find it empowering that He shows Himself to a woman first. I find that her faith in Him never died with Him. I hope my grand daughters can find a testimoy of the love of God in these words. 

 To those who doubt, know that He is there. My son Scott, has lost his faith. He needed somewhere to move to and has not had any luck finding a place in his budget. I had resisted praying for him because he wouldn't want me to, but he was suffering mentally from the stress, so I started to sincerly asking for a place for him to live. He found a place 2 days after I started praying. Doubt not, He is there, even when you don't see him. 

 So on this Easter Sunday without tulips, because of the cold weather, I know I can find peace in the knowledge that Jesus Christ lives. I have thought much this week of how different we worship Him. And you know what? It's all good. He meets us where we are. 

 God Bless you all and find peace in Him. Happy Easter

Dad

When we got back to Yuba City we found my dad in pretty bad shape. By the end of the day we took him to the ER. 

He had Cojestive Heart Failure. He was swollen and not getting much oxygen.  Around 1 in the morning they admitted him. When I told him he was staying and we were going he perked up and said, "I'm not sraying!"  I gave him some Kleenex and told him we would be back invan hour. 

Wes and I went to see him in the hospital on Saturday night. He was awake, not very lucid, which is normal. I watched him try to breath  and struggle to move and knew that this was the last time I would see him.on this earth. 

I asked Wes to give him a blessing.  I did not hear anything about healing. I had only hoped for a peaceful passing.  I cried... a lot. 

I did not want to go to Yuba City.  The last time I saw my dad he knew who I was. When I left him I gave him kiss a the forehead and told him I had to go. He asked, "I'm staying here?" "Yes, you stay here." 

It was the hand of the Lord that inspired me to go in spite of of my fears. It was a blessing for me yo say good bye.  

He is in a Rehab facility now. My mom wouldn't do hospice, but he is struggling. His heart is only working at 25% of capacity and he doesn't have the strength to walk. 

I know that families can be together forever through the sealing power.  I also feel that angles are with him. It will be okay. 

Beach Day

Spring Break was kinda a roller coaster ordeal. I'll start with the good. 

We had planned a quick trip to California after an appointment that I had made here. We went to Bodega Bay. When we got to the intersection that points to Bodega Bay or Carrillo Lighthouse, I choose the Lighthouse.  

The Sonoma Coast is breathtaking and with all the Winter rain it was so green. 

I do love the color of the Pacific Ocean. 

Thank heavens the 330 steps were closed. This was close enough. Just beautiful. 

Cyprus trees and wind are are great combination. 

Sun, lunch, walk to Lighthouse,  cookie...perfect day. 

That evening, we took a walk on the headlands at Bodega Bay. 

Just  amazing

The wind joined us in the morning, but the sun was up. We walked on beach north of  town. 

A couple of more days and these would have been in full bloom. Love ice plant. 

The Ocean was rough, but I found some interesting rocks to explore. 

Muscles hanging on

With starfish scattered here and there. 

One windy selfie and were off. 

So grateful for this beautiful gift from God. 

Broken

I couldn't think of anything to put here on Sunday. Truth be told I felt broken. I can't be the only one, can I ?

Wind

Cold

Work Meetings

Fighting to keep my students out of Special Education

Trying to keep up with my work load

Bad Nutrition

Too much sugar

Concern for family members

I felt broken. 

I listen to the Follow Him podcast and find peace there. 

I find peace in reading the Book of Mormon.

I find peace in sitting in front of my sewing machine and creating quilts. 

I needed Spring Break. I have put in some hours of planning and gathering for work. I needed it. I went to the school and worked uninterrupted for a couple of hours. I get lots of friends who stop by for help with one thing or another, but I needed to catch up. I worked on a couple of new quilts and it felt good. 

I also have had a couple of trips to Hobby Lobby and my favorite quilt store. And I did buy a new pair of shoes.

Breath...sometimes I just need to breath and think about what really matters. 

Life is good. It's hard sometimes but it's good.