I've thought of writing about my journey with her at the end of her life, but not today. I will say that the last time I saw her alive she was in so much pain and uncomfortable. I told her that better days were ahead...thanks Elder Holland. Because Wes had Covid I never went back to see her.
Although she was a good mom, I have had so many friends who have helped me along the way. It is safe to say that they have come into my life for a reason and I love them too.
The other mother who influences my life daily is Wes's mom. I will not pretend to to say she was a good mother in law. Her influence that I feel daily is how much Wes acts like her. It scares me sometimes.
Her ability to talk about things that are not important.
Her OCD'S.
Her desire to go to the temple.
Sending cards to people that she didn't talk to.
Watching sports with the volume down.
And her memory.
She still has a hold on me.
Of course the best part of being a mom is being a grandma. I love these little people. I can't wait for a couple of more.
And my final Mothers Day thought is about my daughter. For whatever reason she is not looking forward to motherhood. I can respect that but I know that children bring joy. Sure they bring other emotions that aren't warm and fuzzy, but being a mom is a great feeling. Now, I'm pretty sure no one ever reads this so i am going to write a secret. She's pregnant. I couldn't be happier. I know she is doubting things right now, but she will never regret this. I cried and am so dang happy for her and Spencer.
Life is good..God is with us...Love your life...
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